Moments reveal inner truths

By Beanie Taylor -
Beanie Taylor -

People are very rarely exactly what they seem to be.

I recently had a conversation with one of my new friends and I discovered he had a shocking history.

I say it was shocking because, had I given it any thought, I would have said he likely came from one of those well-adjusted traditional families with everyone having pleasant conversation around the dinner table after church.

Everyone has their issues but the history he revealed was certainly not well-adjusted although some of it was unfortunately too traditional in all the wrong ways.

Abuse, chemical as well as emotional and physical, often passes through generations without recognition. Learning to overcome those tendencies and examples in others can lead to insight and motivation.

That conversation came to mind because of a movie I saw last night that had Robin Williams in it.

Until his death most people would probably have said that, although he had a rocky past, Williams seemed to be living a happy life.

Obviously he did a very good job hiding the struggles he was going through considering how shocking his death still is four years later.

I cannot begin to imagine what it was like inside his head. I watched an uncle struggle as he became hurtful to the people he most cared for and I can only imagine what it must have been like for someone in the public eye whose job it was to make people laugh.

Williams may have left us with a lot of laughs but he also left us with a greater lesson. People are very rarely exactly what they seem to be.

I don’t know what it was like inside his head, but I have an idea of what it’s like inside of mine.

I know I over-think things and sometimes I feel too deeply which can make the things that happen inside my head go very wonky.

My personal history only beginning to be revealed, my experiences I cannot always talk about, the people who have influenced my life all live inside my head vying for dominance.

I am the sum of all these things struggling to dampen the traits I do not like and nourish the characteristics I hope to see bear fruit, and sometimes it feels like I’m losing the struggle.

Some of those experiences were very unpleasant, although most of the time I will smile even when the memories of those feelings wash over me unexpectedly.

I try to remember that most of those people had lessons to teach me and I’d like to think I have taken some value from even the most difficult relationships.

One of those moments taught me I had no idea how strong I was as I broke under the pressure only to be built up better.

I have no idea how strong I am.

From one moment to the next as life tosses me through transitions, I realize that the face I put on in the morning rarely reflects the image I see in the mirror.

People are very rarely exactly what they seem to be.

Beanie Taylor is a staff reporter for The Tribune. She can be reached at 336-258-4058 or on Facebook at

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